Queen of the World, thanks to Grayson

I swear this baby looks at me as if I can do no wrong, and I LOVE IT! My mother has often looked at Dylan and Olivia and commented on how innocently they look at us with complete and utter trust. I totally see where she is coming from, but with those two I have struggled to see that naivety. It could be that I have always treated them like little grown ups which prevents me from seeing this innocence, or it could be that they are wise beyond their years, and this is really missing, or it could be that I simply was too preoccupied to notice.

But, with Grayson, I see it. He loves me, he loves my voice, he lights up when he sees me. I am perfect in his eyes, and it melts me. (enter Mommy guilt) This also could be that he is always with me. Dylan was with Cathy from 13 weeks of age, when I went back to work. And, Olivia was with me but I was always working away on the computer hoping her naps would never end. Isn't that terrible? Wishing away the hours...But, I did what I had to in order to cope and balance it all. It could also be that Grayson is my LAST baby, so I am taking the time to appreciate the little things a little more. I love seeing the determination in his eyes when he wants to grab something, and his face light up when he gets it. I don't remember this with the other two, I'm sure it was just as cute. But, it has become a blur.

So for now, I am Queen of the World in Grayson's eyes. I really, really like this title, and level of importance. I know it will soon fade, but I'm reveling in it while it lasts.