Long Term Damage?

I am new to this no job thing, but the Mom thing seems like old hat. The guilt really only grows the more I am around my kids. You moms know it well, "Mommy Guilt." Daily, I really try my best to raise good contributing members to society...all the while hoping that my techniques do not create any long term damage. I really have no idea what I am doing. I kinda make it up as I go, and honestly would probably not give myself the gold stamp of approval if I were an outsider looking in. But, I'm not. I'm in the thick of it daily, and it's a little game of survival of the fittest. Sometimes I freak out and yell a little too loud, only to have Olivia call me out saying, "Mommy, be nice!" Then other times I pour a glass of wine after bath and pj's only to have Dylan ask if he can have his drink of wine too so we can all have 'grown up talk time' on the couch. Then there's Grayson, who I force to skip any/all naps so that I can selfishly go to play dates or the gym so that I can steal a brief adult moment into my day. Then there is the scrabble obsession that I have. How horrible is it that I force Dylan to rest in his room for an hour and a half during (what used to be his) nap time, knowing he is wide awake in bed...all so I can play scrabble on my iPhone? Or, that I bribe and barter with my kids for good behavior with McDonald's Happy Meals and other types of garbage food treats?!?! I am CERTAIN that if you were to have had a tape recorder near me 5 years ago I would have sworn under oath that I would never be this kind of Mom. But, I am...and I hope I don't cause any long term damage. Because by the sounds of my parenting lessons above I am raising verbally abusive, alcoholic, obese children with an addiction to electronics.

On a positive note, they will be in school next week...so there's a guarantee of some type of positive influence. :)