Probably shouldn't say this...

(WARNING: grandparents, don't read any further)

But....I think I like my children again. The first trimester of this pregnancy was pretty challenging. In the past feeling tired and sick only impacted me/John or me/john/dylan, but this time with 2 little ones it seemed like a fate worse than death feeling like total hell. I just COULD NOT KEEP UP. I was so self-absorbed during weeks 4-13, all I could focus on was going to bed and not feeling nauseous. POOR JOHN!!!!!!!!!!!! He did SO much. No wonder I keep him around. :)

So, now I feel like me again. I stayed up till 10:30 all week, haven't taken a nap, and haven't been very sick at all. In a nutshell, when I feel better I like my kids. I was scared for a couple of months that there was no way I could handle my 2, let alone a 3rd.

Thanks to Mom, Ash, and all my brave friends for daring to ask, "How are you feeling?" only for me to launch into a 10 min explanation of,

"I feel like shit. What the hell was I thinking? How do you forget this feeling and get pregnant again and again? And...why is it that when you feel nauseous you still can eat and gain weight? Seems like it should be the opposite, uggghhh. blah, blah blah........"

I can now see the light of day (in week 14), and as a mature adult realize that this is why we do it... :) aren't they adorable?